story of my life

I feel like crying ..
if I remember all the things ..
beautiful things or things that make me disappointed ..
I had thought to regret it but it was so stupid if I do all that ..
god ...
I admit ..
I am very envious of those who had experienced such bitter events that I experienced ..
My life has been destroyed since the incident last year apart all my dreams ..
god ..
my tears have been exhausted to regret it all ..
I feel empty now ..
I want revenge on them ..
god ..
I envied my cousins on ...
why fate I do not like them?
why god ..?
whether this is the destiny of my life ..?
if all can be started again??
I wanted to come back like my old self before I was to jogjakarta ...
I hate ..
I hate to see jogjakarta ...
and the most I hate is I hate my bad luck ..
god ..
forgive your servant ..
forgive my sins are my God ...
I am very sorry for this misfortune of my life ..
hopefully ..
I'll get that happiness ..
amen ..

lotus yang malang

kisah lotus ku pikir hanya dalam dongeng saja atau legenda ..
ternyata dalam kehidupan real pun bisa terjadi.
lotus yang malang..
kenapa harus menimpa mu...
saad suka hanya sementara..
namun..saad duka begitu lama nya kau alami..
aaaaaaaggh ..
entahlah..
kalo mengupas tuntas tentang lotus..
ku rasa dan ku pikir tak akan pernah selesai...
intinya..
lotus adalah sosok jiwa yang tak bahagia sampai akhir hidupnya..
huuuff..:(