story of my life

I feel like crying ..
if I remember all the things ..
beautiful things or things that make me disappointed ..
I had thought to regret it but it was so stupid if I do all that ..
god ...
I admit ..
I am very envious of those who had experienced such bitter events that I experienced ..
My life has been destroyed since the incident last year apart all my dreams ..
god ..
my tears have been exhausted to regret it all ..
I feel empty now ..
I want revenge on them ..
god ..
I envied my cousins on ...
why fate I do not like them?
why god ..?
whether this is the destiny of my life ..?
if all can be started again??
I wanted to come back like my old self before I was to jogjakarta ...
I hate ..
I hate to see jogjakarta ...
and the most I hate is I hate my bad luck ..
god ..
forgive your servant ..
forgive my sins are my God ...
I am very sorry for this misfortune of my life ..
hopefully ..
I'll get that happiness ..
amen ..